There is this part where it refuses to leave in peace. Whether it has been affecting everything else is unclear, yet it seems to circle around the same thing over and over again.

You know I cannot change what has happened; I cannot change the past. Yet you are bitterly upset over things that have gone by, moments that have passed, wrongs that have been done. I wish you could ignore them all. If only I could cover your eyes and your ears and your heart. If only you were blind and deaf to all these maddening, sickening, never ending dust that does not seem to settle no matter how far away we have run.

It is over.

So why is it so hard to just let it be? It is like whenever I place my hands over yours and lead you the way, the moment I turn away for a while, something just had to pop right up, bringing back the past, making it fresh and very much alive even thought the time has passed and is now long gone. But it is there. The memories, the cherished moments, the lingering hopes and wishes and dreams, the regrets and the sadness. They are constantly repeated, going on and on like a broken record.

Stop this annual routine. Stop trying to rake up the past. Stop trying to remember what you lost. Just stop.

Just bury everything. All the hopes and dreams and love and pain and memories and things. Dump them into the bottomless pond and stick that “No Fishing” sign over the waters. Why do you have to drive us both up this wall with your constant curiosity? Why does it matter what is happening now? Do you think that the broken bond in the past is strong enough to be made whole again?

You have wished and dreamed for much more than this. But for now, just live and enjoy the present. Look up and hope into the future.

Keep moving forward.